Nothing is happening with Depakote. My moods are still level. But I do appreciate life more. I watched the sun slowly rise as the crescent moon and single star remained out. It was the most beautiful thing, I’ve seen in a long time besides my kids’ births. Maybe certain souls are more immune to negativity than others? I’m not trying to go “all religious” or anything. Maybe people like me can’t handle constant darkness and so much negativity?
“How can you not speak out about politics?” Honestly, I can’t handle politics. It drives me insane. It’s one of my triggers, so I avoid politics at all costs. You have stronger people who can handle it all. That person isn’t me. Trump has always been a douche nozzle or the captain of the douche squad. That has NEVER changed. Not since I’ve been alive. Did you know you can’t sit on the floor inside Trump tower? Did you know they don’t give tours for school children in that place? Nothing has changed since 1994. But, as much as a prick he is, he’s still our POTUS. I didn’t care for Bill Clinton either. I used to be a Democrat until he fucked Monica. The whole cigar incident did it for me. I left the Democrat party after that went down. Ah! How people forget or weren’t alive! That was the biggest scandal in the 90’s! I stayed Independent for a while. Then, I switched to the MAP… Moderate American Party. I don’t care for the Republicans nor Democrats. Both parties have pretty embarrassing past presidents. Trump isn’t our new low. All we do is elect puppets on a string who are controlled by our congress and house of representatives. Trump used to be a lifelong Democrat until Obama became president. Then he switched sides. But, Americans forgot about that, too.
“We don’t understand the electoral college! Hillary should have won!” I understand. But you can’t have big cities like Los Angeles, New York City, or Chicago speak for the rest of the country. You’re telling us that the rest of the United States doesn’t matter. The people in Montana, don’t matter. The people in Wyoming, don’t matter. The people in Idaho, don’t matter. The entire map of the United States turned from blue to red for Donald Trump. The only areas that were blue were the bigger cities. So, if you have over 2 million people living in Los Angeles, of course, Hillary will get the votes there. She lost all the smaller towns and cities. During her campaign, she focused on those big cities, and she couldn’t make time to visit the smaller cities. Don’t blame it on Bernie! Bernie had shit to do with it. Hillary couldn’t be bothered with the tiny cities. That is why she lost. If you don’t want it to happen again, I suggest 2 million plus voters need to move to these smaller states and make a change. Don’t live in an area that is over saturated with Democrats. And nobody remembers the Republicans crying when Obama won twice over the electoral college. It did the same thing for Obama. They only want it abolished when their favorite candidate fails to win. That system was put in place for a reason. We don’t need bigger cities dictating what the smaller cities can do with their lives. Meh… I don’t understand people these days. And I remember Hillary failing to answer a young black teenager’s question. She actually became snotty with her. You can find that video on YouTube if you’re interested. Hillary is a closet racist. And she treated the secret service like shit when she was first lady.
I still don’t care for either party. Bernie is now a sell-out in my eyes. I warned people. If Bernie didn’t become the nominee, watch people switch their votes to Trump. Sure enough, I was right. If the liberals continue to bash Trump, we’ll see a repeat in 2020. We do this every 8 years. We switch to Democrat for a while and back to Republican for awhile. I don’t believe the Democrats have anyone who can take on Trump at this point. They need to get this candidate out now to take on Trump. This person needs to be charismatic. Because frankly, you don’t need experience now. Avoid calling Trump names. It won’t work. Over 53% of Democrats voted for Trump. Nobody could stand Clinton. And nobody wanted Bill back in the white house either. The oval office incident from the 90’s anyone? We became the laughing-stock of the world when that shit went down. We didn’t forget. It’s the silent Americans, you need to worry about. They’re ready to re-elect Trump in 2020. These are your coal miners, your police, fire & rescue, people who work in the oil fields, factory workers, and farmers. Those who don’t pop off with stupid shit all the time. They are tired of being accused of shit they didn’t do. They are tired of being told how to live. Fuck it. You reap what you sow. None of them care about Hollywood or their obnoxious awards. They turned the television off because it became a Trump bash session. Hollywood seems to believe they have influence. No, you don’t. And while these people are getting richer by making a ONE movie, the rest of us are dying out here. Parents working two jobs to provide for their family. They don’t give a shit about what actor or actress in Hollywood thinks anymore. We know they can write it off on taxes. The hardworking middle class Americans can’t write it off on our taxes. While these people don’t pay for shit, neither do the lower class. We can understand the lower class but not the upper class. That’s why Americans are so pissed. A lot of Americans are boycotting movies, shows, and etc… You want us to pay $15.00 per movie ticket? Well, fuck you! We’ll wait until it’s on Netflix or Red Box. And these are the same people who bitch about the wall, but they live behind tight security and walls around their properties.
Why do Americans own guns? If you live in the middle of nowhere, it takes the cops about 20-45 mins to get to where some of us live. By the time they get out there, tragedy would have already struck. That is why we own guns. Not only is it in the Constitution, but it does take cops a long time to get to some of us. We have mountains, roads that are in poor shape, and flooding does happen. I prefer swords over guns and a dog over guns. I grew up around guns all my life. I know how to use one, but I choose not to own one. I live next to the police station. We’re good. And my dog is pretty good about letting me know something is up. I have swords nobody thinks is a sword. Some are out in plain sight. Even my kids don’t realize it’s a sword. I have tomahawks. Those were passed on to me since I’m part Native American. I find it more insulting to call me part indigenous. A part of my family has been here for a long time. The other part of me comes from Europe. My dad carries the Native American traits, he’s part Scottish, English, Irish, and French. My mom is half German and half Bohemian (Czech Republic). While doing research on the family, I stumbled upon mental illnesses from both sides. Anxiety and Bipolar from my mom’s side. Schizophrenia and Bipolar from my dad’s side. There was one story from my dad’s great uncle. His great great-grandfather fought for the Union side and his brother fought for the Confederate side. When the Confederate great-uncle returned, he went insane. So, the grandfather locked his brother up in a woodshed, leaving him there. That is where the term, “I’ll take you out to the woodshed” comes from. Or they locked family members in the attic or basement if they were deemed “mentally unstable.” The family wouldn’t talk about it. Part of me feels bad. I live in a time period that could use some improvement still, but I have medications to keep me from a lunatic asylum.
Do I believe the mentally ill should own a gun? No. I don’t. Not even while on medication. That temptation will always be there. What if you have a depressed moment? All it takes is for one bad day, and you do something terrible. I won’t own or buy a gun. Even though I have security clearance to own a gun. I won’t take that risk. But you own swords! Yes, but I have never done anything with them. No more dangerous than a kitchen knife. And even in my most depressed state, I never thought of using a sword. I used pills instead.
Maybe more souls are sensitive than others? I’m at my happiest moment when it’s summertime and I’m next to the ocean with sand so white that looks like pearls. I’m a summer baby. I can’t handle the gray skies or snow. I don’t like snow. I can stay out in the sun all day long and be perfectly content.